My Mind

My mind is at it again
And I wish I could pretend
'Cause I know I'm not alright
But nobody wants to see
A man struggling for his dreams
But I'm not the kind to fight

My mind is at it again
So this time, I must pretend
That everything is okay
But then I'll fall to my knees
And suddenly, I can't breathe
I think I made a mistake

My mind is at it again
But this time, I won't pretend
That I am doing just fine
I'm losing way too much sleep
What the fuck is wrong with me?
There's dark thoughts inside my mind

My mind is at it again
So just fuck what I pretend
Because you know it's a lie
I will say that I'm okay
You'll believe me and you'll say
"It's not like I didn't try"

My mind is at it again
And I wish I could pretend
'Cause I know I'm not alright
I was broken from the start
A failure fallen apart
A pawn to what you call life

My mind is at it again
And I don't want to pretend
That the world is worth this life
I've opened my eyes to see
The strings that were holding me
Which I cut to make things right

My mind is at it again
'Cause I was told to pretend
That everything was okay
But nothing is as it seems
The world's stomping on my dreams
And they look the other way

My mind is at it again
So what is left to pretend
Now that it's all gone away?
All I see left is a guy
Who keeps praying to the sky
As he lives his final day